AMID NOTHINGNESS
by
Cathlucero
- July 06, 2018
There
will be times, when ambiguousness within ourselves, stuck at zenith. Plainly to
say, who we are, will be question itself.
Cold
as steel, weight of our own weird guts
grow heavier and heavier and sometimes, we’re intend to do something that will
patch, complement, or even get rid such strangeness.
These deeply, choices varied from listening
music with lyrics and harmony drowned us either with glee or elevate our melancholic.
Watching movies which brought us to vivid perspectives of places and characters
of distinct individualists. Reading books, compel to our minds to work-out and
set our shoes to different lives. Called parents for “how’s lives” talk. Wander
friends and chit chat with them until we tread on magical stories, of
travelling past antics or even surf social media account and keep in touch with
some long-old friends and sent regards to them added off-course streaming to
YouTube for videos to watch. Gone through doing the said activities, we often
ended with ourselves, in still, emptiness. Odd, isn’t it?
It is normal to feel
extremely sad for nothing? As, if the feeling itself drag most of your
self-esteem to deteriorate making you feel down?
I, at times, sick with
heaviness resting like a stone in my stomach. Amid battle of self-defiance
against nothing. Waved off with questions, mugging an expression of exaggerated
impatience.
Life, perhaps twisted with antonyms and
looseness. A normal seasoning in an arena, all the corner’s a stage and for mine
case, I need a holiday and time to know more myself.
…how about your circumstances?
